Checking the foundations

It’s one of those weeks where the diary is full and there are lots of people to meet with and conversations to be had and thinking to be done. The meetings are later in the evening than I love, the work days involve travelling a fair amount.

So today I am checking in on the foundations. I am considering blackout blinds, because the earlier sunrise is waking me slightly earlier than I want. But in the meantime, my new found habit of not drinking caffeine after noon and my Lenten avoidance of alcohol are ensuring I am sleeping well for the hours I am in bed. I am also trying to wind down at the end of the day doing some light journalling and reading before bed to switch off, even when the meetings finish late.

Exercise has been a bit harder to fit in, but I have done some yoga and a run so far this week. Even the days without yoga and running have had good walks in the sunshine. And the sunshine has really really helped.

Food has been great thanks to planning the week’s menu and deciding who is cooking each evening (I have got off very lightly on that this week). That said, I need to stop writing and go and make some lunch to take with me today!

I have had time every day to catch up with family and have grabbed coffee with friends. All the Scout meetings have been interesting and full of lovely, supportive people. And we are not quite half way through the week.

The second half of the week – that is after 6pm on Thursday – has no work (I have Friday off) , no volunteer meetings and lots of fun planned. I will definitely have plenty of time to be quiet, reflective and prayerful and to play the piano and spend some time being creative. The balance of life is not within every hour or every day, but over the weeks and months.

For goodness sake, stop

It’s Tuesday.  It’s very early on a Tuesday when I write this and yet so far this week two people have commented on me being a bit grumpy. Reactionary maybe.   Is this news to me?  Not really. Is it majorly frustrating.  Oh yes.

It’s frustrating because one of my goals this year was to be calmer about things.  Specifically, to stop talking so much.  To pause – possibly for ever – before speaking.   Being calmer and quieter was the overall aim, it sounds like I need some mini resolutions to work on this a bit more this month.

It ties in with a theme from last week – a craving for quiet and still.  My brain is definitely full and very chattery at the moment, so maybe that is why it is reacting to things.

It’s all this that meditation is supposed to solve isn’t it?   And yoga.  And prayer, especially contemplative prayer.  Yep – I have the answers. And yet… This could very well be the cause of the frustration – I know what to do, but haven’t done it.  I have no excuses.

But one step at a time. Discussing this blog at the weekend, a friend described it as a way for me to write down what was top of mind and allow those thoughts some space to breathe.  Space and breathing sound like things I am aiming for.  Now to do some of that other stuff too.  Where’s the yoga mat?

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