I have half attempted blogging over the last few weeks, but have not managed to complete one; I had forgotten the cathartic benefits of writing stuff down and putting it “out there”. Today I need the catharsis.
Yesterday was one of those days that come out of the blue and knock you for six. Thursday had been lovely, starting with a family run and ending with dinner with a friend and her group of friends who are very delightful and interesting and strong women.
Then it went downhill fast with the offspring waking with a very high fever. Something made my maternal flags go up, so I sought medical advice. All of a sudden we were on the way to A&E with a case of suspected sepsis or meningitis. Neither were happening thank God. It was a long morning of tests and waiting for results, but the end result was that we were given the all clear for those nasties and sent home with a stash of antibiotics.
It was a shocking reminder that life can be fragile, things go wrong quickly and in a moment life changes forever. Yesterday ended well, with offspring feeling better and the whole family at home. Nevertheless the Mama-brain has spent many hours with the what-ifs, and processing the fact that I had forgotten about meningitis being a thing for teens, that I had started to think that those scary days of watching little ones be very poorly were behind me. The scary days just involve someone much taller than me, but they’re no less scary it turns out.
I went to bed thankful for our NHS, for the friends that stayed by me via text all day, for the support of family, for having jobs that enable us to switch to a family focus with no notice (or in my case to work part-time). And most of all, that the offspring is getting better and those nasty illnesses were not a reality I am living with today.