Today is my last working day of the year. When I next sit at my desk it will be a new year, a new start and I will be a totally new person.
I will be very efficient, there will not be a thousand emails in my inbox, my to do lists will be legible and realistic. I will calmly prepare thoroughly for all meetings and ensure that I have read all the required papers and have done some extra research on all topics to be discussed. I will follow all meetings and events with timely feedback and follow up wherever necessary. I will be available for every colleague whenever they need me, answering every email, phone and skype call as they come in. I will have reflection time every day to develop my work against my plans and priorities. I will reach every deadline with time to spare. I will be happy and calm at all times.
Ah, just writing all of that is making me feel so much better, I am typing and giggling at myself, which does a power of good. My personal need to leave the year in some sort of state of perfection is indeed funny, even if I have not been able to see that in the last couple of days.
Mainly I am looking forward to a holiday and I need to be very self-aware and check this daft feeling that I need to leave my desk today with everything in order for the imaginary perfection to be possible in a fortnight’s time. Especially as it would take me two weeks just to clear that inbox.
Happy last working day of the year to you, whenever it may fall for you.
Thinking quietly 