I am a self-confessed drama queen. I guess it is my defence mechanism, if I make a drama out of it, it rarely lives up to that level of dramatic impact. I would like to think I live life to the full, which maybe means I love heightening the drama of the little things. To be honest, I am not sure I have ever really thought about why I am a drama queen, nor the effects of it on others.
Ironically, I am calm and collected during a proper drama. It’s almost as if I just need some drama, if the situation is not dramatic, I make it so, if it is, then I don’t need to, so you get the calm, collected version of me.
I am not totally sure that that is how everyone sees me though, or just those very close to me. Yesterday a colleague fed back to me (it’s annual appraisal season) that I tend to over-dramatise, so people tend to ignore me. Not in those words, but that’s the gist of it. Anyway, it was given as a weakness I need to work on, so I am musing on it. And what better way for a drama queen to muse than via a blog – the irony does not escape me.
The challenge to me is to be able to communicate effectively when I think that things are going wrong and I need some help. I seem to be disguising fear by being dramatic. So when I am worried about a situation, I seem to frame it in such a way that people disregard my worries. Talk about an inefficient way of communicating.
I am hoping that writing all this down helps me to notice my communication style and find a more efficient one. Or maybe I’m just being dramatic and you should ignore me.